Aksomaniac, Shreyas Sagvekar – Paapam Lyrics In English (Translation)

Pedi, kaalangalaai pedi.
(I am filled with fear, and have been for so long.)

Veenju veeshum kaatil
Ee ezhuthum paatil
Ee parayum vaakil
Paadangal thaandi
(The wind carries the scent of my vices, as I search for meaning in everything I do.)

Irritum kaattil, njan thedum vaathil.
Alayaum kaattil kaalangalaayi
(I wander in the dark forest,
In search of a way out, but lost for ages.)

Ee vazhigalil enn paapam aay shaapam aay-
Nee, Tharum thanupp enn bhaagamai, bhaaramai.
(My ways are tainted with sin, cursed beyond measure,
And the comfort you offer only weighs me down.)

Ee varikalil enn paapam aay shaapam aay-
Veenadayum inn enn pranamaa, shwasamaa.
(My words are stained with sin and curse,
And I struggle for breath, close to my end.)

Veenalum, thernaaalum.
Ee bhaaramundaavum ennalum.
(Even if I were to cease to exist,
The weight of guilt would remain on my shoulders.)

Vazhigalil enn paapam aay shaapam aay.
Nee Tharum thanupp enn bhaagamai, bhaaramai.
(My ways are tainted with sin, cursed beyond measure,
And the comfort you offer only weighs me down.)

Mhmmm,
Majya bharlela taatat nay bhaagat hi sharirachi bhook,
(Even after I’ve satisfied it, my body still hungers for more.)

Tichya ghaama chi laagleli tahan, savay ghaan, tari jaanun pan kartoy mi chuk,
(I’m intoxicated by the scent of your sweat, yet it feels wrong.)

Khota boltoy mi swatahalch khup,
Chukloy, guntloy mi shodhtana sukh,
(I lie to myself, finding fleeting pleasure in my wrongdoings.)

Hya jaalyat na nahi mala suut,
Hya jaalyat na nahi mala suut,
(I’m trapped here, with no escape.)

Khota boltoy mi swatahalch khup,
Chukloy, guntloy mi shodhtana sukh,
(I lie to myself, finding fleeting pleasure in my wrongdoings.)

Hya jaalyat na nahi mala suut,
Hya jaalyat na nahi mala suut,
(I’m trapped here, with no escape.)

Kasa sundar toh purush jar swatapratich vaagnuk hay kurup,
(How can I be desirable when I destroy myself?)

Mala samjud naay changlyachi tondala kulup
Tar duniyadari shiku tari kuthun?
(How can I understand the world’s ways, when I cannot even discern my own?)

Mala akkal nay bolaychi baghtoche durun,
(I am lost, a mere spectator in my own life.)

Lahanpana pasna ekach vaadal hay suru,
(My heart and mind, forever at odds.)

Hya dokyat ni hrudayat kay yetach nay julun,
(But the moment I hold you close, all my troubles fade.)

Pan visarto ghyayla mi shwaas, tichya nazrechya laatet mi budun.
(In your embrace, I surrender completely, like a man walking into the sea.)

Veenju veeshum kaatil
Ee ezhuthum paatil
Ee parayum vaakil
Paadangal thaandi
(The wind carries the scent of my vices, as I search for meaning in everything I do.)

Irritum kaattil, njan thedum vaathil.
Alayaum kaattil kaalangalaayi
(I wander in the dark forest,
In search of a way out, but lost for ages.)

Ee vazhigalil enn paapam aay shaapam aay-
Nee, Tharum thanupp enn bhaagamai, bhaaramai.
(My ways are tainted with sin, cursed beyond measure,
And the comfort you offer only weighs me down.)

Ee varikalil enn paapam aay shaapam aay-
Veenadayum inn enn pranamaa, shwasamaa.
(My words are stained with sin and curse,
And I struggle for breath, close to my end.)

Veenalum, thernaaalum.
Ee bhaaramundaavum ennalum.
(Even if I were to cease to exist,
The weight of guilt would remain on my shoulders.)

Vazhigalil enn paapam aay shaapam aay.
Nee Tharum thanupp enn bhaagamai, bhaaramai.
(My ways are tainted with sin, cursed beyond measure,
And the comfort you offer only weighs me down.)